The importance of photos, frozen memories

I look at your photos and see your face but I'm not sure what I feel anymore, when u were here I took photos all the time and as you slept I'd look through my phone at these photos and beam, thr joy I felt to look at those was hard to put into words, I printed out loads even in the short time you where here. I took these photos with such pride and care knowing these were precious memories I'd keep forever, I didn't realise as I clicked the shutter just how important every photo I was taking would really be. Every photo I look at of you now fill me with such a mix of emotions and so much frustration, agony and aching for what could have been all the additional memories that should have followed photos that will never get to be taken. I treasure the photos I had the chance to take but to look at them can cause so much pain, looking at a constant reminder of who is missing.
I want to say to anyone reading this who has little babies, little children, take out your camera, take photos lots and lots of photos.
Although my photos hurt to look at sometimes I know I am greatful for every smile, funny face and peaceful sleep frozen in time.