It may feel like the end but keep fighting

Stood in A&E I can see my daughter laid still on the bed and the masses of people around her are no longer hurrying about they are now still, a lady is stood in front of me telling they can't do anymore, I can't hear her words properly just myself repeatedly shouting "no" behind her I see winters father enter the room and my shouting is then to him "please make them do something please" then I hit the floor and I say to him "I don't want to be here without her, I don't to be here anymore". At that moment I felt like my life was over, I couldn't carry on, I saw no way forward from that moment in time, saw nothing in front of me worth carrying on for.

I tried to be as strong as I could but after my marriage failed I broke down a bit, I agreed for my older children to live with their dad as I didn't feel strong enough to give them the life they deserved, I gave my marriage another try and tried to make it work but 9 months after losing my baby girl my marriage was over fully, I felt I had nothing left, my beautiful girl was gone, my older girls had gone to their dads and my marriage had failed, I felt hopeless and tried to take my life, luckily it didn't work and I survived to carry on fighting. Nearly a year after I am still here, I am the best I have been since losing my little baby girl, I have a new partner who is amazing, he offers me all the support in the world and is so understanding to the pain I have been through.

Please please anyone who feels they have lost everything and there is nothing to carry on for believe me there is, it doesn't have to be the end it can be a new beginning, learn every lesson hard times teach you and go on to be a better person than you have ever been before, you'll have more understanding to others than you ever believed you could do.

Never struggle alone reach out even if it's to someone you don't know, talk about how you feel and accept help from others, live on for your little ones.

I've said before and I'll always say it again please anyone who doesn't know where to turn I am always here, email me, message me on here, on instagram anywhere just done feel alone.

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