I'm currently sat on a train 18 months after losing my baby princess and I'm suddenly hit with an awful sadness out of nowhere, this leads me to wonder the question in my title am I ok or just good at faking it? Do I just spend most of my time pretending I'm fine and the suddenly it's like a container that's filled to much and overflows. I don't know and I guess I never will, I think I'm ok most of the time obviously certain things will set me off but recently I have had a few nightmares again remember that day and now this, I'm sure it's just normal I can always remember someone telling me that grief is not a straight line so that could be all this is.
When these moments hit it's all consuming like the sadness and pain is the only thing you are able to feel right now at that moment I ask Winter to comfort me, it's a strange feeling like no one else is around you it's just you and the sadness, starting blanking at nothing.
I guess it's just part of my life now and I know winter is with me every step of the way
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