As time has passed on I spend less time crying and mourning for winter but tonight as I was talking to someone about winter I sent them a picture of her and suddenly felt this pain in my heart as I looked at her face and though I almost can't remember what holding her felt like, kissing her head, changing her nappy or feeding her. I dont want to forget these things but am I forgetting them or is ny mind making them less prominent now in order for my heart to move forward. Maybe it's just time, as the between now and the memory grows the memory itself fades but does that have to be a bad thing? I'll never forget winter herself it's juts the feelings, smells etc that may get harder to recall but this is surely normal, I can't be the only one.
What we all have to remember is that even if we forget little things from time to time as long as we make sure now forgets our angels existed we are doing them proud.
We do what we must to survive and thrive those moments will never be lost to you
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