Sometimes I find I can go ages and ages without feeling to bad but then it hits you like a ten tonne truck, last night I could not sleep for anything, everything was in my mind, thinking back to that last night together, to that awful day, thinking about what we have missed together what we will never get to do.
The thoughts plague me as the rest of the world sleeps I lay and weep, eyes full of tears my mind full of dreams and memories of the little girl I wanted to dearly, the Angel I got to look after for 5 precious weeks. When I have nights like this I have to think of something anything to stop the feeling of utter loneliness I feel as I sit thinking people don't understand why I still feel like this, I have to disract myself from the anger I feel at having my dreams for my beautiful daughter ripped from me. Most of all I have to remind myself that no matter how alone I feel at this moment I'm not I have people all around there to support me.
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