Fighting the great fight

Today I fight, fight like a boxer fighting for his championship but tonight I'll maybe crumble and weep again, does this make me weak? Some say it's makes me strong.

I am currently fighting the hardest fight I've ever had to face. Myself and my husband chris spent 6 long draining yrs trying to conceive and in July 2014 I had surgery that diagnosed stage 4 endometriosis, my ovaries and bowel were found to be attached to the back of my uterus, before we could look at any treatment it finally happen 18th August 2014 I found I was pregnant, we were over joyed and a little nervous. My pregnancy was pretty uneventful really as pregnancies go.
April 2nd 2015 we welcome our amazing daughter winter into the world, she had a massive amount of dark hair and she was heart stoppingly beautiful. Winters birth was not as smooth as I would have liked, my bladder got torn and I ended up with a catheter for 2 weeks but it was a small price to pay for such a miracle. Unfortunately our time in paradise was short lived when on Monday 11th may 2015 winter sadly passed away and devastation like I've never known hit our family out of the blue. October is miscarriage, stillbirth and infant awareness month so throughout the month in honour of the end the silence campaign I will post blogs of my experience and hope it encourages more people to talk openly about there own experiences.